Sunday, November 15, 2009 ♥ 17:15
♥ smooches
I really should be studying, but what the heck. xP
This post is dedicated to my special someone.
The one who has been by my side through my ups and downs.
Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on when my world crashes down around me.
Thank you for being the source of my laughter and the reason for the smile on my face.
You're the one who makes me feel beautiful when i'm not.
You're the one who holds me together when i'm falling apart.
You're my pillar to lean on when i'm at my weakest.
Eventhough we have our arguments, i promise that i'd go through anything for you (even the psychomoms ;] )
And i know i can be a super pain in the neck, so thank you for being so patient with me.
It's been a long and bumpy journey, yet somehow it feels like it's only been 3 months. But here's to 3 years, and hopefully many more to come. ;)
You know how much you mean to me.
Happy anniversary, baby.
I LOVE YOU.
Monday, November 9, 2009 ♥ 22:03
♥ smooches
I miss the days that i could eat. I mean the good stuff. Cause all i can eat now is lettuce and meat. The good stuff is carbs. That's what i miss. Carbs. Carbs and sugar. I remember the good times when i had sugar. Like just the other day, 2 weeks ago, before i started this damn diet, i had a hiew piah. (I'm Hokkien. Deal with it.)
So, anyway, my dad bought like 6 packets of hiew piah and told my mom to keep them in the store room. He specifically said that whoever wants to eat it has to get his permission. Yes, he loves it that much. I woke up and i was hungry so i asked my mom if i could have one and she said yes. So. i had it. Then, my dad came home and i got into the car.
Me : Hey, dad. I ate one of your hiew piah.
Dad : *makes a spluttering sound* YOU MUST PAY!!
Me : Haha. Too bad. I already ate it.
Dad : It's 1.20 for each one you take!
Mum : Why do you need so many packets of hiew piah? You still have some left over from the last time you bought it. It doesn't taste nice when it goes stale.
Me : Yeah, dad. Why do you need to hoard your hiew piahs?
Dad : Fine! You can have some. But only the stale ones!
Yes, my dad. The hoarder of the hiew piahs. Well, he's probably having the last laugh. Now that i'm stuck dieting because i am Thunderthighs.
I'm still deaf! I can't hear anything. Especially because the ear drops the doctor gave me went into my ears and got stuck there forever.
I hate being deaf! I know how deaf people feel now. I will donate to the deaf people's society when i start earning money.
Oh. In that case i hope you don't do alot of charity.
Why? I already thought about donating!
You only think about donating when you experience their pain! I don't want you to get sick so much la!
Ohhh.
Haha. I have a... caring(?) pet brother. Haha.
I'm planning to fail sejarah lah. Seriously. I think at the rate i'm going i have no choice but to fail. XP I need to call Hannah! That girl's probably studying like mad right now. I'm lazy to colour my post. I shall leave it black. So there.
Sunday, November 8, 2009 ♥ 01:37
♥ smooches
My father has taken to calling me Thunderthighs. Oh no, he didn't! Oh yes, he did. He even invented a themesong. It only comes on when i eat things i'm not supposed to be eating. It's something like Batman except the word Batman is replaced by Thunderthighs. Such is my fate. To be nicknamed Thunderthighs by my very own flesh and blood. Haha. I'll accept this fate.
It's 1am! Why am i still up? I should be sound asleep by now. I feel so guilty cause i'm not studying. XP Someone who i'm not close decided to tell me bout my personality. He came up with this:
- You seem to be a girl that loves to dream , and live a peaceful life , but sometimes , you demand for more excitement and , you always demand for perfection , but lazy to get things done properly.
- You don't trust other people completely.
- You are onced cheated by someone that you trusted so much and you prefer to seal urself. Wouldnt want to get hurt anymore.
- You wouldn't really like to expose ur inner behavious to people that you are not close with. You are a bit too armed.
- Actually, you would really one to treat people sincerely and wish them to treat you back as you do but things doesn't really happen that way. (I thought i treat people pretty sincerely.)
- You don't treat them fake , you just wouldnt to waste ur feelings towards people that doesnt earn that.
- And the MOST important thing is, all the predictions are more less sorts of accurate but you don't want to admit only.
Now what do you think about that? Hmm? Hahaha. Tell me if it's true. Am i that easy to read?
Moving on, i can't hear. My ears are blocked. Cotton buds are the root of all evil. I have to flush my ears out. =S Apparently, according to my dad, after your flush your ears out. Your hearing gets so clear that you can "hear the butterflies fluttering in the neighbouring meadow". Haha. What a nice way to put it. Haha. I can't wait for that day to come.
I love the middle one especially. Note how i don't use yellow because the colour burns your eyes. Haha. XD
Friday, November 6, 2009 ♥ 22:17
♥ smooches
Hello universe! It's friday and i'm not studying. Why? Because i don't see the point of studying sejarah. I'm not gonna pursue a job as a lawyer. So why be good at sejarah? It's a stupid subject. Yes.
Graduated yesterday! How awesome is that? End of our 5 years in WMS. Kinda sad actually. Haha. The days before graduation i kept saying : Let's graduate, Hannah. She kept giving me a weird look and saying : Okayyyyy. And on graduation day i said : Look! We graduated! Hahaha. I have no idea why i kept saying let's graduate. Was it illogical? Haha. I think people don't get me.
Hmm. I wanna thank Barty for being an awesome possum. He really cheered me up! Haha. I guess fat is relative. Different people have different perceptions of what is considered fat and what is not. I'm gonna miss being in high school. Who knows if i'll find friends as sincere as the ones i have now. Life is gonna be so weird without all the friends i have now. Haha. Still deciding between Help and MCKL. If i end up in MCKL i'll probably still see most of the people i see now.
I'm not gonna start naming people i'll miss because if i do i'll probably name two thirds of our form. Haha. So, i'm just gonna talk about yesterday. Had school leavers' service in the morning. Madam Norita can really sing. Haha. She souds like Siti Nurhaliza. I'm serious. Then the speeches. Tammy's was super long. And it was making me all emotional but i didn't cry cause i'm strong. Haha. I found Mark's speech very cute because halfway through he stopped and got all nervous because i think he wasn't prepared. Haha.
Xian Wei. Oh, Xian Wei. Too much information. We didn't need to know. Oh. I might be scarred for life. But well, i'll probably never forget Xian Wei eventhough we've only spoken to each other less than 5 times in our lives. Haha.
Then picture taking time! Best part of the day. Haha. i looked pretty crappy in all the pictures but oh well, i'll live.
"My super hot boyfriend. Shyt, he's sexy!"
"Hibiscus Hedge"
"Attack of the big-eyed people, two of which are fated to be together."
"Man"
"Gay"
"Emo"
"All of us. What are we called? Rollergirls? Haha."
Alright. That's all for today. I'm waiting for Ian to come online so i can webcam him. XD Can't wait!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009 ♥ 21:25
♥ smooches
I am depressed. Why? I'm fat. Yes, you know that your fat when your boyfriend calls you fat. I can't seem to lose weight. I'm on a diet now but it requires exercise. If i were to exercise i wouldn't need to be on a diet now, would i? I'd simply exercise and eat normally. Doesn't that make sense? I don't even dare to weight myself. I dread weighing myself everyday. It's not pleasant. Not pleasant at all. I honestly thought that this stupid diet would work for me but i guess not. I think maybe i'll stop soon. It's depressing me and people keep telling me that i'm gonna put on weight cause i'm eating too much protein. Well, i haven't put on any weight but i haven't lost any either. And now that i'm so fat i can't wear anything. Everything looks bad on me.
I'm also depressed because SPM is so close and i know nothing about sejarah. I need help. Sigh. I'm so screwed because i know nothing. I need to get straight A's. People seem to be under this impression that i only have 2 brain cells.
Pissed me off when my uncle loudly said that i don't know anything about anything but makeup, clothes, and how to look pretty. Excuse me? He doesn't even know me. Plus, doesn't he look in the mirror? If he were so smart he'd have a high paying job and he wouldn't still be living with his mother. Sigh. I'm not stupid! I don't understand. Do i just give that "i'm stupid" vibe? Do people just come near me and sense that i have an empty head? I don't understand how you can just judge someone like that without knowing them.
I don't think i'm stupid. I would consider myself average. And even if i were below average i don't think i'm
stupid. Which brings me back to SPM. I have to get straight A's to prove them wrong! Ahhhh. But somehow i just feel like i can't do it. I just feel so down and like what's the point? Sigh. It's like no matter how hard i try i'm destined to fail. I will never be someone who can do Sejarah and i will never be someone who can get straight A's. I'm just not that type of smart person. I really have alot more to go and no matter how much i read i can't remember.
I need someone to save me now. Sigh. If i don't get this, it means that my hopes and dreams have flown out the window.
I wanna be more than just a pretty face. I wanna be someone worth something someday.
